As silence fell. It consumed me slowly. Should I just leave this orientation week and take the next plane home? I didn't realised that I've been enduring in God's strength as I kept reminding myself the financial crisis my family was going through. And that there was no way that I could give up on this job. I ended up adjusting well, was thankful and all, yada yada long story cut short, I forgot the role that Jesus plays in my life. Life as a cabin crew may be all glammed and glittered. Yet not all that glitter is gold.
Temptations are like the clouds. They hover over us. Especially when we are thousands of feet above solid ground. Defying gravity. Where gravity personifies our Rock that never rolls. So there went many downs than ups.
I was way too raw. Unguided in my walk with God. Sparing all details, here I am, all redeemed and transformed. I faced brokenness all at once again. In my own relationship, work and my parent's marriage. Sometimes you just wonder why altogether? That one night, I cried out to God. I need His strength.
I need His peace. I need to grow in His love for me. And I don't walk alone. And as days passed, I came to know Him better. I realised that I've begun to hunger for Him everyday. Jesus just filled my heart with that invisible promise. The peace. The love. The relationship. The chemistry. Then came my first visit to Hillsong London. I unleashed all my worries and fears. I surrendered completely. I let Him walk in and consume my heart of worhsip. I felt so peaceful. There and then, amazingly, most of my flights to London falls on a Sunday. Where I'm able to attend church! He knows our hearts desires.
And He was just waiting for me to confess them all. I didn't go through a grave situation here in my testimony which I always thought a testimony must be a dahsyat one. What's more important is the knowledge that God doesn't change consequences but His purpose for us in each consequences and that our faith in Him is forever steadfast. I've made my vow to God, from that day onwards, I will never leave Him out of any of my problems. Jesus just want to be the center of my life. And He has His place right exactly in the center of my heart. There is none other than Jesus that can put Himself at execution point to save my soul. And I believe you and I know that it wasn't the nails that actually held him to the cross but His unconditional love for us all.
Last but not least, I just wanna thank God for sending me angels,to share my laughter and tears.Angels you know who you are ;) and thank You Lord for all the providence that flows in my life and simply, a beautiful night like this in exalting Your precious name. I declare I am a Christian today not because I've been clean all along, but I was once lost then found and forgiven by His Amazing Grace.
Not all that glitter is gold.But all His glory is gold.
I Love You everyday Jesus.
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